Day 75

Bumpy Path

I almost didn't meditate yesterday. I generally have three opportunities in the course of a day to sit: before the kids wake up, in the early afternoon (nap time), and after the kids are in bed. Like many days now (especially weekends), yesterday I didn't get up early enough to sit in meditation before everyone else woke up. We had company, so nap time was out, too, and by the time the kids were in bed for the evening, I just didn't feel like sitting. Eventually I convinced myself to just do it (and it was well worth it), but I saw how easy it is to get caught in the idea that meditation is too much of a hassle, and to worm my way out of doing it.

Today, again, I didn't get up early. The night had contained child nightmares, coughing fits, and the (thankfully incorrect) thought that an intruder was at our door. I was tired, and turned off the 6:37am alarm. I worked a meditation session in between swimming and bringing my daughter to dance class this afternoon.

I don't like that my regular routine has gotten all scattered. I find it hard to stay motivated, and hard to just get into the state of meditation when I sit. I would like to start getting up at 6:37 every day again, because that was working well for me. I didn't expect this kind of bumps on the path.